Alone
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Just incase you wanted to read the story before A Fathers Sacrifice
This is actually the story of Morgans parents and how she got to where her story started.
Index
Part 1
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Where am I? This road seems to go on forever? Well that’s if you can call it a road, more like a dirt track. How did I get here?
Oh great rain, that’s all I need, I am lost and what’s this? I am pregnant? Why don’t I remember that? Why don’t I remember anything?
Ok calm. I am….. erm, my name is…… god I don’t even know who I am.
Oh what am I going to do? My head hurts so badly and it’s getting cold. Maybe if I carry on I will find somewhere to stay, surely this is just a bad dream. That must be it if I find somewhere and sleep they maybe I can wake up in my real world.
My feet ache; this barn will have to do.
Oh great it’s a stable, gee I hope it isn’t Christmas Eve and my name isn’t Mary that would just be too weird. Ok I am going insane. I am talking to my self.
At least there is no one here; if I just lay down here for a while I am sure I will wake up normal again, what ever that is. I wish I could just remember. I hope the owner doesn’t come here. What would they say to some strange pregnant woman taking camp in their stable? Well I guess I will just have to worry about that if it happens.
Now when I open my eyes I am going to back to normal with full memory of who I am and not be pregnant.
Aarrrggghhh. Ok big blue eyes staring at me that was freaky.
“What are you doing in my stable? Asked the voice.
Ok big blue eyes must be real, just open your eyes and look.
“Nope still there” I said
“Pardon?”
“Never mind.”
“Who are you?”
“erm, well I am.”
Oh god nothing has changed, I still don’t know who I am and I am awfully hungry, wow never felt hunger hurt like this before.
“Are you ok?”
“Do I look ok to you Mr?”
“I think you need a doctor stay there.”
Yeah right like I am going anywhere and even if I did where would I go? God and my stomach, I mustn’t have eaten in days.
And oh god what’s that? I am incontinent? How did I manage to wet myself and not feel it? Oh well this is just great this is, well I better get out of here before I cause my self anymore embarrassment.
I heard the blues eyes voice guy coming back and it sounded like he was talking to some one.
Well this is just brilliant, here I am not knowing a thing, with major stomach ache and a bladder problem and here comes Mr Blue Eyes and some woman, ground please feel free to swallow me up right now.
“Oh my dear, what on earth happened to you?” said the woman.
“erm.”
It would be nice to say something better than erm, but right now it’s all I know.
“Who did this too you? She asked.
I am not going to say erm again.
I just smiled instead
which of course was probably more idiotic than erm, but hey.
“It looks to me like you’re in labour my dear.”
Labour? What she talking about…….NO! She means……..
“No, no I can’t be, I didn’t even know I was pregnant till last night.” I said
Blue Eyes burst out laughing. “Didn’t know you were pregnant, how could you have missed that, I mean it’s not as if you’re at the beginning of a pregnancy.”
“Cade, you’re not helping.”
“Sorry, I’ll just go over to the house.” Said Cade
“Oh no you’re not Cade, your helping me deliver this young ladies baby.”
“But I…”
“Cade!” she said sternly.
“Ok I’ll help I mean I have delivered cows babies before.”
Why the cheeky…….if it didn’t hurt so much to move I would go over there and lamp him one, big sexy blue eyes or not he called me a cow.
I just scowled at him instead
“What did I say?” he asked.
They managed to get me into the house, with me walking propped up on them and the two of them leading to way, though I do think It was more of Cade dragging me that actually got me into the house.
“Now you relax on this bed and we shall get this baby out into the world.”
“God I cant do this, I am not ready for a baby.”
“Honey I am afraid you have no choice in the matter.”
Well isn’t she right there. The sooner this baby is out the sooner I can leave and go …erm well somewhere.
“Right Cade, it shouldn’t be long now before the baby comes, I need you to go and get me some water and a cloth so I can take a look at her bruises.”
“Bruises?” I asked.
“Yes, you look like crap, would you like a mirror?” said Cade.
Well isn’t he the charming one, I felt like crap too but I wasn’t going to admit that to him. How could someone so hot be such an ass?
Should I really be thinking about him like that when I am about to give birth? Nah who cares I am a red blooded woman.
“Why do you have one of my shirts on?” he asked annoyed.
“Well I couldn’t really give birth with a pair of jeans on now could I?”
“But you’ll get it all manky and ruin it
Well doesn’t he have a way with words?
“Cade?” interrupted the doctor, “go and get the water I asked for.”
“Ok, ok I am going; you wouldn’t believe this is my house would you? Is my bed going to be wrecked when she has finished with it?”
“Cade, shut up and do as your told.”
Ooo I like this woman
Well I think I will get off his precious bed, the sofa looks much more comfortable anyway, if there is such a thing as being comfortable in this state. I wonder why any sane woman goes through this more than once. Must need their heads read if you ask me.
“I found this old playpen thing in the attic; I thought it may come in handy. Would you like anything to eat?”
“No thanks, I don’t really feel in the mood for eating.”
Ok what did you do with Cade, because this isn’t the same man who went out to get water?
“This labour has been going on all night; do you think it will be over soon?” asked Cade.
“These things can take time, she is very tired now though so I hope it wont be much longer.”
Oh god this is it, I can feel it coming now. Maybe I can pass out and I won’t know what’s happening. How much pain do you have to be in before you do pass out? Ow ow ow, god someone make it stop.
It’s all very well them two stood there cheering, they’re not in agony.
Well that was fun, I must admit. Personally I would rather have gone and had my teeth pulled out. And twins? This is just too weird, someone could have told me I was having twins, or maybe they did, oh I don’t know. I just want to go to sleep now.
“You need to get some rest now.”
“Yeah, I am rather shattered.”
“And what am I supposed to do with this thing?” asked Cade in his normal manner.
“It’s a baby Cade, not a thing”
“Yeah yeah what ever, what do you want me to do with it?”
“You’re a grown man Cade you figure it out, I am going to bed.”
“It’s your baby and that’s my bed.”
Oh here we go toddler syndrome, here comes the stomping of the feet and screwing up of the face.
“Fine, I’ll go and get the other stuff out the attic. Make your self at home…..Oh sorry you already did.”
I wonder what he’s like when he is in a good mood.
“Right, she is settled in bed now, I am going to go. You have my number any problems just call or come and get me.”
“Your going?”
“Yes going. I’ll call back every morning and check on her and the babies.”
“Whoa there, every morning, you mean I have to put her up for more than today?”
“Oh Cade have a heart, I know you like your hermit style life, but she needs help and she landed on your doorstep so you need to help her.”
“Well I didn’t ask her to come. I don’t even know her name.”
“Neither does she, she can’t seem to remember anything.”
“She can remember her attitude alright.”
“And yours is any better?” Cade was actually speechless. “Right I am going.”
Well here goes, time to get grunted at. Let’s hope he doesn’t mind me watching his telly with him. I could sure eat something though. I wonder if it’s safe to ask.
Ok he’s going for the ignoring thing, that’s fine I don’t want to talk to you either.
“Right I have work to do, I will be out back if you need anything.”
Oh my god it spoke, I thought for a while there I had suddenly become invisible. At least if he isn’t here I can make my self at home properly. Just need to find his bathroom so I can have a bath.
I cant believe its morning nearly again, I wish I knew what day it was, my body clock seems to be shot to hell as well, I cant tell if its 5am or 9am.
I am so hungry, if I make Cade some breakfast, hopefully he won’t mind if I have some then.
No shirt, yum…stop it right now.
“Something smells good, and you appear to have clothes.”
Yes and you appear to be missing some of yours, not that I mind of course.
“Yeah Dr Thomas brought me them when she came to check on the babies. I made pancakes do you want some?”
Say yes, and don’t get dressed and so I can sit and eat while dreaming of eating you.
I must stop this, I wonder if it’s the hormones.
“The clothes suit you and your face looks to be getting better. Do you remember anything?”
“Nothing, I can’t even remember my name for god sake, and that’s really annoying.”
“You don’t remember who beat you up or how you got to my house?”
“All I remember is I was suddenly standing in some lane, which I followed and found your stable, it was raining and I needed somewhere to stay.”
“Maybe we could go to the hospital, see if there is anyone there that can help you.”
“Are you actually offering to do something for me?”
“Well I just thought that if you saw a professional you could get help to remember your life and go home.”
“Cheers for that you start of nice then throw in the real thoughts.”
“I didn’t mean it like that.”
“Its fine, you don’t want me here, its your house your pace I understand.”
“Look I’ll go if you want me to.”
“Yeah and where would you go? What’s your address?”
Well if I knew that then I wouldn’t be here would I?
“I can’t remember, I told you that I can’t remember anything before that night.”
“Do you remember your name?”
“No nothing.”
“Right well I need to call you something, lets pick a temporary name for you.”
“Ok”
“How about Tina? Shelly? Or maybe Sophie?”
I just looked at him
“Where on earth did you come up with those names?”
“Well they are the names of my…err”
If he says cows I swear I am going to hit him, though not in the face, too pretty. Maybe kick him in the shins.
“Go on”
“They are the names of my pigs.”
“Pigs!”
Pigs? Do I look like a pig? Well maybe at the moment because I look like crap but naming me after a pig.
“I’m sorry stupid idea, how about Mia?”
“And I would be named after?”
“My favourite TV character.”
Well at least that is better. Will check later to see whether she looks like a pig or a cow, mind you his favourite TV character could be a farm animal.
“Ok Mia it is then.”
“So….er do you have anyone special in your life?”
“Oh yeah, have you not seen her?”
“She’s here?”
“Yeah were else would she be?”
“What she called”
“Susie.”
“Oh and she doesn’t mind you having breakfast with a strange woman?”
“Well I wouldn’t have thought so as long as she gets any scraps that are left.”
Now I am confused.
“Scraps.”
“Yeah she loves to eat the scraps from the meals.”
“You feed your girlfriend scraps?”
God what kind of person am I staying with?
Cade started laughing at me.
I think he may have lost the plot now. Lets hope there is an escape door, because I think I may need it.
“What is so funny?”
“You think Susie is my girlfriend.”
“Well duh, you said she was the one that was special in your life.”
“Yeah she is, but she’s a dog, Ooo I don’t think I have laughed this hard in a long time.”
He’s laughing at me, I cant believe it. I have never met some one so insufferable as him, I have known him what 24 hours or so and already I could happily throttle him.
“Fine, laugh at me. I am going to my room.”
“You mean my room.”
Gggrrrr. Count to ten 1….2…..3.
Instead I stormed off outside. When I got on the porch and the air cleared my head, I couldn’t help my self. I started laughing as well.
How can one person make me so angry and have me laughing at the same time? Oh I hope my real life is a lot more normal than this, perhaps its just because he is like a Beverley hillbilly.
I kept out of Cades way for the rest of the day. He tried talking to me a couple of times but I just ignored him, it would probably only have ended up with him calling me some name.
He might have been a bit of an idiot, but his house was lovely. The view was great and I swear I could hear the ocean.
Maybe I am mad.
“Would you like a drink?”
“Huh?”
“A drink, you know the wet stuff that you put in a glass.”
Ha funny
“Erm, yes please.”
“What would you like?”
“What’s on offer?”
“Well I am having lemonade but I’ll make you whatever.”
“No lemonades fine with me.”
Wow he was nice to me, let’s hope this evening doesn’t turn into the recent insult and storm off.
“Here you go.”
“Thanks.”
“How come I can here the sea?”
“Because it’s near here.”
“Oh, I assumed I was inland as it looks like you live in the country side.”
“No, this farm is great is a mixture of both worlds. Round here its all trees and fields, but just over that way is the sea. It has a great view at sunset. Maybe err…”
“Carry on” I said
“No, its ok stupid idea really.”
“Let me judge that.”
“I was just going to say, maybe you would like to come with me one evening and we could watch the sun set, it really is beautiful to watch.”
“I would like that very much.”
“Good, well it’s a date then…oops…… not a date an erm.”
“I know what you mean Cade.”
“Dr Thomas phoned before, she has set me up an appointment with a consultant at the hospital, she said she pulled a few strings and I can see him tomorrow.”
“Well that’s good isn’t it?”
“Yeah I suppose.”
“You suppose? Don’t you want to remember who you are?”
“Well yeah, I do. Its just that maybe there is a reason I have forgotten, maybe something bad happened.”
“Well you did look awful when I first met you.” He said
Cheers for that.
“I didn’t mean it like that what I meant was you were a mess.”
Would you like a spade to carry on digging your hole?
“I am not saying this very well am I?”
No he isn’t, but I will let that one pass, I did look like death and I probably still do to be honest.
“Well thanks for the beer Cade, I best be getting some sleep as those two in there will be awake soon.”
“Ok night Mia.”
I reached over and gave him a hug to say thank you. You would have thought the way he jumped that I had just tried to do something horrible.
“Sorry Cade, I think I over stepped the mark, I was just trying to say thanks.”
“Sorry I didn’t mean to jump. You startled me that’s all.”
You would think no one had ever hugged him before the way he just reacted. Either that or I did really look bad. Knowing Cade it was probably the latter.
I woke up with a start.
What’s that noise? Do I get up and go and check? Its probably just Cade.
No I can hear voices.
Quietly I crept out of bed and listened from the doorway
“She is my fiancé I suggest you get her out of bed farm boy.” Spat the voice.
Oh that didn’t sound nice.
“She is sleeping and isn’t very well, like I said give me your number and I will get her to call you in the morning.”
“If you do not let me in and get her I swear I will knock you into the middle of next week.”
“Listen idiot, get lost, your drunk, she’s asleep and I am not going to disturb her.”
“She is not your property.”
“Nope but she became my responsibility the minute you dumped her on my lane.”
Curiosity got the better of me; they were obviously talking about me.
“What’s going on here?” I asked.
“Its ok Mia, go back to bed, this thing was just leaving.”
“I was not and her name isn’t Mia, its Stacy.”
“You know me?”
“Yes I am your fiancé.”
Yeah right like I believe that, you’re ugly as sin. I may have lost my memory but I am not stupid. Surely my taste was never that bad. God what if the twins are his.
“Your name is Stacy and we are engaged, don’t tell me you don’t remember.”
“No I don’t and I really don’t believe you.”
“How can you say that, you love me, we are having a baby.” Said the man “Oh you have had it, where is my child?”
Oh god I hope this isn’t true. What ever was I thinking agreeing to marry this man and having his child? Maybe loosing my memory is part of the insanity I must be suffering from, because if I said yes to this man I defiantly must be mad.
“Why was I all beaten up then, if you know me?”
“Oh that, it was nothing we just had a little row.”
“Little row?” interrupted Cade, “you mean you beat a woman and a pregnant woman at that.”
“She is my woman I can do what I like”
“Well she isn’t anymore, now get lost jerk.”
Ooo this is a different side of Cade I am seeing.
“Make me leave.”
With that Cade leapt at the man and physically removed him from the property.
“Are you ok?” he asked
Yeah sure, considering that freak seems to think he owns me and claims to be my babies father.
“Yeah I am fine.”
“Is he really your fiancé?”
“I honestly don’t know, I don’t remember him, but if I am engaged where is my ring?”
“That is true.”
Why cant life be simple? Seeing Cade like that just does things to my stomach. He really does make my stomach flip with butterflies. It’s always nice when a man sticks up for you, but it’s even better when it’s a gorgeous man sticking up for you.
Oh what is wrong with me, whenever something happens I resort to thinking how fit Cade is?
“Why are you staring at me?” asked Cade
“Staring?”
“Yeah, you were staring and grinning.”
Ah crap busted, how do I get out of this one without looking like an idiot.
“No reason I was just thinking that’s all.”
Please don’t ask me what about, I don’t want to embarrass my self tonight.
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“I think I will go back to bed now and get a bit more sleep before the babies wake up”
And before I say or do something stupid and embarrass the hell out of my self.
“Ok then well goodnight” said Cade
The next morning Cade was up before me, the twins were having a lie in which I was glad about. While I was sleeping to phone rang.
“Hello”
“Hey Cade, its Dr Thomas here, will you tell Mia that the consultant has had to cancel today. An appointment will be rearranged in a couple of days, family emergency I think he said.”
“Sure no probs, hey are you working today?”
“No I am not, but I sense I may be by the tone of your voice.”
“Well it’s just that Mia had a rough night last night and I want to take her and show her the beech, I was wondering if you fancied a spot of babysitting.”
“It’ll cost you.” Replied Dr Thomas
“How much?”
“A stocked fridge and plenty of coffee.” Laughed Dr Thomas. “What time do you want me round?”
“Now?”
“Ok see you in a few.”
“Hey sleepy head wake up” Called Cade through the door.
“What?”
“Hey sorry, I was just wondering if you fancied seeing that beech. Dr Thomas said she’ll baby sit and the consultant had to cancel, some emergency.”
“Erm”
There I go again with that erm, every time I am around him I can’t talk, he must think I am a right idiot. But he’s inviting me to the beech a chance to see him in just shorts and all wet, how can I say no to that?
“Is that yes or no.”
“It’s a yes.”
“great go get your swim gear and off we go, I hear Dr Thomas pulling up outside.”
“Wow this place looks great.”
And deserted, promising.
“Its nice here, no one comes to this part as its well hidden.”
“Oh trying to get me alone are we?”
“No why would I want to do that?”
Gee sorry I asked.
“Come on get your swimming stuff on, the water looks great.”
“Ok, but turn around, I am not getting undressed in front of you.”
“You gave birth in front of me what’s worse than that?”
Charming
“Just turn around.”
“Race you too the water.”
“Nah your fitter than me, you’ll easy win.”
“Chicken.”
“I am not a chicken!”
What is it with this guy and calling me farm animals, I am going to get a complexion soon.
I looked at him cheekily.
“Go!”
“You cheat.”
We ran down the beech and straight into the water, of course he beat me, but it was still fun to see the shock on his face.
“Cheat”
“Yeah? Well take that” I said as I splashed water at him
“Oh your gonna get it now”
“You have to catch me first.”
I swam out, he was right behind me.
I never even thought what if I cant swim? Ok I am in deep water now is not the time to try and remember if I can swim or not. Ooo he’s getting closer, best get out and run.
“Ha ha catch me now slow catch.”
I better run I know for sure he is a faster runner than me, then again why am I trying to get away I want him to catch me then….. no I’ll stop there,
“Gotcha”
“Cade stop it, I am ticklish.”
“Oh I’ll have to remember that.”
He is even better looking when he is all sun kissed and wet.
“I think its time we headed home now, its been a great day.”
“It has, thank you Cade for a great time.”
Do I hug him to say thanks or will he freak again? Nah just go for it, any excuse to touch him.
“Thanks again Cade.”
“Don’t mention it, it has been fun, I haven’t laughed so much in ages.”
He’s right there; I could just lean over and kiss him, would he push me away? Sometimes I think he likes and others I cant work him out. I can feel his breath on my face, it wouldn’t take much just to close that gap betweens us, but what if he pushes me away? What will I do then? God its awful wanting someone.
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“Do you know, now that all the bruises have gone, you have a really pretty face. All those freckles.”
“Oh my god did you just give me a compliment?” I asked shocked.
“Could have been worse, I could have said spots.”
Thanks, and there goes my moment.
It wasn’t a long way from Cade’s house, just a quick drive down the road, but while we were driving I realised something and I needed to talk to Cade about it.
I don’t know why Cade’s input on it is important, but it just seems like he is part of my life now. I will have to talk to him later. Maybe I could discuss it with Dr Thomas, yes that’s what I’ll do.
“You guys have a good time?” she asked.
“Yeah it was good, that beach is beautiful, and the scenery was so nice to look at.”
I doubt she realises when I meant scenery I don’t mean the sand and the water, more the eye candy that was with me. Stop it; you have important things to do.
“Dr Thomas.”
“Please call me Suzy”
“Sorry, Suzy is there any chance me and you could have a private word about the babies?”
“Yes of course. Now?”
“Please if you don’t mind.”
“Hey don’t mind me, I’ll just go and get a shower and wash all this sea and sand off.” Said Cade.
“How do I say this?”
“Just spit it our Mia, that’s the best way when you don’t know what to say. In anything if you hesitate you miss the moment and then kick your self for it later.”
Well that’s the truth; I will defiantly be kicking my self later over missing the thing on the beach.
“Well, it’s just that…….. I can’t cope with the babies, I haven’t bonded with them and it’s not fair on them.”
“That’s quite normal after birth, all mothers feel a bit apprehensive after giving birth.”
“No it’s not that, I mean I love them and everything, but it isn’t fair on them. I want to get them adopted.”
“Are you sure?”
“Positive, I was thinking about it in bed and then today when we went out it was so nice to be free.”
Don’t I sound like mother of the year?
“What about the father?”
“I met him last night and I wouldn’t give him a rat to look after, god knows what I was thinking.”
“I think you should wait till you have seen the consultant, if you get your memory back you may want them.”
“I suppose, but that means looking after them for a week or so.”
“There is one thing you could do.”
“Yeah what’s that?”
“Well Cade has a sister and she can’t have kids, but she does help out a lot with the local children, you know looking after them if there is some family emergency etc.”
“Oh?”
“You will have to ask Cade to ask her, but I am sure it won’t be a problem.”
“Would you ask him?”
“His wont bite you know.”
You sure about that?
“Honestly, plus he’ll do it for you.”
“Eh, I don’t follow.”
“Oh come on Mia, I have seen the way he looks at you, no one has ever managed to get Cade to look at them like that in a long time and believe me girls have tried.”
“Why?”
Please don’t tell me he’s gay, such a waste.
“Well he hasn’t looked at any woman like that since…er.”
I looked at her to carry on.
“It isn’t my place to say, you’ll have to ask him”
Oh nice one. Gives me half a story. Talk about leaving me on a cliff-hanger.
“I have said to much, its time for me to go, but just think abut it Mia. Why would any bloke as good looking as Cade hide himself away on a farm?”
Well now I am puzzled talk about cryptic clues.
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