Tara's Choice
Foxybaby:
Keep it coming-I'm enjoying this one!
ferrischick99:
June 24
This morning I woke up with really bad pains in my stomach. They were so bad I felt like throwing up. It was so bad I passed out on the bathroom floor. Lucky for me Corey came by and found me and took me to the hospital. They did tests and told me that I was in labor and that they were going to keep me until the baby was born. So I just got my epidural and now I'm feeling good. It doesn't hurt nearly as bad. So now I just wait until my little baby is born.
8:23 pm
My sweet baby girl Kaylynn was born just over an hour ago and she is beautiful. She has the most gorgeous blue eyes. She was 6lbs 5oz and 19 inches long. She is such a great looking baby. She even has the lightest bit of blonde peach fuzz. She is adorable. I'm really tired tho but I will write more later.
June 27
Well we are going home today. Kaylynn has been doing so well. They thought she was kinda jaundice but her blood work was good today so they said she could come home with me. Corey is going to stay and help me out for a few weeks just so I don't have to be home alone with her. Katie is going to come and help out every day too. Kaylynn is going to grow up with a big extended family with Katie and Corey she will always have people around her that love her.
July 4
Things have been so crazy at home. Kaylynn is always crying, pooping, and eating. Its non stop with her. If its not one thing then its the other. Even with Corey's help I still don't get a lot of sleep at night and I get to shower once every 2 days if I'm lucky. She is so demanding. She gets fed every 2 to 3 hours and then has to be changed every 4 hours. I tried to breast feed her but my milk never came in and the Lactation nurse said that was due to me being so young. Sometimes I just really wished my mom was here to help me.
July 24
Today Kaylynn is a month old. I cant believe how big she is getting. She likes to lay on the floor and look at me and she giggles and even smiled for the first time today. As tired as I am taking care of her she is such a sweet angel. But I found out something today that ruined my whole day for me. Katie came over around 2 while Corey was at work. She picked up Kaylynn and started playing with her and turned to me and said something that didn't make sense to me. Tara I think Corey is Kaylynns father. I was so confused I didn't know what to say. I thought it was funny that she looked so much like him. She had his eyes and his hair color. It made sense but how did it happen. So Katie continues to tell me why she believes he is her father. She told me that the night of the party way back in October Mason and Corey had put something called GHB in our drinks that made us pass out and then they took advantage of us. She said Mason admitted it to her when she told him that I was pregnant. She said she was too scared to tell me and didn't think the baby could really be his after just one night. She said that I had been so distant from her she thought it might make things worse. I was upset at first with her and almost asked her to leave but then after I thought about it she didn't know any better and I was very distant from her. The only person I really had reason to be mad at was Corey.
ferrischick99:
July 26
I asked Corey to leave today. I decided not to call the cops on him but decided that he should leave. He denied the whole thing like I thought he would. So I told him that if he wasn't going to own up to using me then he had to go and to expect me to come after him for child support. He then went on to tell me he wont pay a single dime until I do a paternity test and all that crap. So I called the lady from WIC and asked her if she could tell me who to call for that kind of thing. She gave me a phone number and I got the test set up for tomorrow. I'm nervous because what if he really isn't the father. I have a gut feeling he is but there still could be the chance that he isn't.
July 27
Well the test confirmed it Corey is 99.98% not Kaylynn's father. I have no idea what to do now. I got rid of the only person in the world who loved me enough to help pay for things I really need. I have no way to pay for a babysitter for Kaylynn and because of that I cant work. Katie helps as much as she can but since she went away to summer camp I'm all alone. Now I don't know what to do, I literally have no one, not Corey, not Katie, not my mom. Sometimes I just feel like I want to die. Some how I have to figure out what happened to me. I have a sweet baby girl who needs me and a father. Now if only I knew who in the world that father could be.
August 1
Katie comes home from camp in 2 weeks. Kaylynn is getting bigger every day. She is getting so big that I had to buy new clothes for her. WIC barely covers what we need for food and in only a few months I'm going to have to start buying baby food for her. Katie's father helps me a little but I feel so horrible taking that kind of money from him. He has already done so much for me. For some reason I feel like I just need to leave this place and get my life straight away from everyone and everything that got me into this mess. I love Katie like a sister but if she wouldn't have asked me to go to that party back in October I never would have gotten pregnant, never would have gotten kicked out of my house, my mom never would have started drinking again and never would have gotten killed. I think I do need to leave the little town of Evermore and move on to bigger and better things.
purpleshoes:
This story is interesting.
ferrischick99:
August 6
Well Kaylynn and I got on a train with the 500 bucks I had to my name and went all the way to California. We stayed in a cheep motel for 2 days while I look for a job and a place to live. I was amazed to find a house for rent for only 450 a month. They wanted 100 for a deposit and that was it, we could move in immediately so on day 3 of being in Calli we moved into a small but cute 3 bedroom home. It had a nice fenced in yard for Kaylynn to play in when she got older and from the way things are I really think we will make it ok here.
August 11
I had a job interview today for a restaurant but I don't think it went very well. I had to take Kaylynn with me because I don't know anyone well enough to let them watch her. I have some nice neighbors. A middle age couple with 3 kids, a boy about my age and then two girls one looks about 7 or 8 and the other one about 3. Well at the interview all she did was scream her head off and it was really hard to answer questions and feed her at the same time. So we went to the Goodwill store and looked for some things for the house. All we really had were a few lamps and an old ratty chair that was left there. Oh and the sleeping bag I brought from home. I felt so bad I left everything including the wonderful nursery set Mr. Keller bought Kaylynn. At Goodwill I found some pretty nice things for cheap. A crib for Kaylynn, a couch, a cheep old tv, and a bed frame and mattress all for only 100 bucks. I had to pay 10 extra bucks to get it all delivered but it was worth it. Now my house is starting to look more like a home.
August 16
Today I was taking Kaylynn for a walk down the main strip in town and stopped to admire a nice dress in the window of a shop that looked really high class. I just kept thinking I would look so great in that dress. Well as I was standing there a man walked up to me and introduced himself as Mr. William Ford. He said that I was a very pretty girl and then looked in at Kaylynn and just gushed over how cute she was. We talked for a few minutes about Kaylynn and at first he thought she was my baby sister and when I explained to him that she was in fact my daughter he looked surprised. He asked me to go sit down with him and have some lunch and at the rate I was going with loosing money I took the offer. He took me to a nice high class restaurant and told me to order whatever I wanted. At first I felt bad but once the food was in my mouth I felt great. It was the best meal I have eaten in a long time. After talking to Will for a while he told me he owned a club up town. He said it was a nice little club and he was looking for pretty girls to come work there for him. The club opened at 5pm every night and payed 9 dollars an hour plus tips. He said the pay was good and so were the hours. At first I wasn't so sure but after talking a bit more it really seemed to be my only option and with that kind of money I could afford a nanny for Kaylynn. I took the job invitation and then he took some measurements of my body for my outfits and told me that I could start tomorrow night.
August 17
I never in my life imagined that I would be up on stage dancing for money but after working just one night I made 200 dollars. I cant get a job anywhere at my age that pays that well. With that kind of money I can work weekends and have enough money for rent in one weekend. So we had it set up that I would work Friday and Saturday nights until 1pm and then on Sundays I would work 5pm until 12pm. That way during the week I could be home to go to school. I wasn't sure if the school thing was going to work out but it was worth a try. So tomorrow morning I'm gong to go to the nearest school and try to enroll myself.
August 18
Well today went good at Riverdale High. They were able to enroll me to start school on the 25th of August and best of all they have a day care at the school I can bring Kaylynn to while I'm in classes. It sucks that I have to start over as a second year freshmen but it might give me a head start. I'm going to do good now. Going to stick to my studies and do the best I can do to make a life for me and Kaylynn.
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