Witch Hunts I am finaly done
OwlM:
But it was ok, at least I had one more place to go where I do not worry about my beauty because my friend was married. His name was Xi Zhemin, he had wife and my best firend V and 2 children.
I enjoyed going to their tea seremony.
OwlM:
Since child hood I liked dressing as a pesants do. And sometims I did all dirty work. But when I have become a honored wife I did not want to have any cervent nor I wanted nobody in my house I lived a seacret and hidden live away from all that citys urban crazy house effect.
OwlM:
I belive that in my life I had a few clixam moments where I did change from time to time. And I am about to tell of one of them or maybe two. It began from the night time. I had a dream that my beloved husbend was about to merry our princces Diana. I woke up all is weat. Ofcource it was just a dream I knew that my dear John would never have done that to me knowing my attitude he would crash me to nothing.
Next morning I was planting some tomatoes and went to see how are my beloved apple trees are doing. There I saw a note on my garden tools.
"My dear Mica
I know all this year you have waited for me. I know all your steps and I am more than sure that you were more than a good wife and have done all of duties you have been asked for. But I feel that I did not compleat my duty to you and there for I have to leave you. King have approved my decision and now you are free to go my charm. In order to eascape the dishonour tell that I die. Be in mourm for a few monts in all your sorrows and black, but then find a deasent husbend. I leave you a house to go, and a money. I am sorry but this is the cruelty of the world and sooner or later you would find out of my shamelles pashion for our princces.
Your always John"
Note have fallen from my hend, tears have run trough my cheeks and sour taste have touched my lips.
OwlM:
And then I walked home not realizing all what have heppened
I went to my guest room to draw something to help me realize what i am feeling. And than something inside of me broke. My head droped on my palms and sobs came out of my mouth.
I hated my self I wanted to pill of the skin from my face.
But it wouldent come of so I began to growl
I could not stand it so began screaming.
I was screaming louder and louder hoping the world to hear me, hoping that he would hear me and come back to me. I did not feel that I deserved that kind of punishment in my life.
OwlM:
I felt that at this point I lost everything that was beign in value for me. I lost a point and meaning in life, I was living a life that I have been told to live and now only source of my living was destroyed. I desidet to sell house and brought old farm in dark courner of our forrest far away from other living sourcess.
I have chenged, the black become the color I only saw in my way, where I went only darkness and cold would follow me.
Soon I even began to hate myself and the way I look so I desidet to cover up everything that would show a lady in me.
Never again did I have a tear in my eye. I knew that there will be no way back where I have came from.
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