Ignorance {3.3.08}
JennyLynn:
Jillian couldn't believe Jacob had done what he did to me. She seemed like she was ready to punch someone in the face.
Jillian: "Oh, you poor thing. Well, don't you worry now, you're safe here, with friends."
She smiled and so I did I when she said 'friends', and then hugged me.
Then she got up and said she had some errands to run, and that she'd be back in about an hour. So it was Nathan and I. "This", I thought, "isn't going to be very exciting." But I tried to make the best of it, so I walked up to him, hoping to get a conversation out of the gesture.
Amber: "Hey, Nathan. So, umm, what're you doing...?"
Nathan: "Fishing. Are you blind? Can you not see that?"
Amber: "Yes, I CAN see that, but I was just wondering..."
Nathan: "I really don't care. Go away."
Well that backfired. Big time. So, I left him alone.
Dinner was the same that night. Jillian and I chatted away about random topics and Nathan...
Nathan said nothing. I was starting to think he might be mad at me for bothering him earlier, so after dinner I decided to find him again and attenmp to talk to him, again.
I found him on the upstairs porch, stargazing. I stood there watching him for maybe 5 mintues when he finally spoke.
Nathan: "How long must you stand there for?
Amber: "Oh, so you DO speak? Huh, I was starting to think you'd gone mute."
At this remark, he spun around and got close to me and I could feel his breath on my face.
Nathan: "You know nothing about me, how can you say I'm mute!?"
Amber: "Because, this is most you've spoken to me in the past two days that I've been living with you, in the same home!"
Nathan: "Did you think that I didn't WANT to talk to you!? I don't even want you here! Let alone to talk to you."
Amber: "Fine Nathan! Next time I'm at risk of dying, I'll make sure not to come to your house for help!!"
And with that, I turned away and went back into the house.
I've never been the type of person to hold a grudge, and after laying in bed for what felt like hours, I had to go back and talk to Nathan.
As I walked down the hall and eventually into his room, I braced myself for the worst.
I saw Nathan relaxing in his bed, and he didn't seem a bit bothered by our argument earlier. but when he saw me, his face turned sour and he sprang off of his bed.
Nathan: "Ever heard of knocking? Try it next time."
Amber: "If you're going to be continuosly negative towards me, I won't even waste my time apologizing to you."
Nathan: "Why would you apologize to me?"
Amber: "Because I feel like I should..."
Nathan: "Well, don't. There's no reason for you to waste your breath."
Nathan: " 'Cause I'm the sorry one."
For some reason, seeing his smile for the first time, and feeling his arm on my shoulder made me feel like he was sorry, but then why the hell was he such a jerk before!?
Nathan: "I want to show you something..."
He told me to follow him and we walked over to a corner of his room to an end table that had a vase and a portrait on it. That's where he knelt down and said to me...
Nathan: "Look at the picture, and tell me who you see."
I was not prepared for who I found staring back at me...
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I couldn't speak. My vocals chords had frozen, so I jumped to my feet, holding my heart as if I seen a ghost. Well, more like a clone...
Amber: "Sh...she looks..."
Nathan: "She looks a lot like you."
Amber: "Yeah, it's like, looking in a mirror. Who is she?"
Nathan: "...My mother."
WHAT!? His mother!?
Amber: "But she died..."
Nathan: "That's why I keep her picture. And when you arrived, you reminded me so much of her, I wanted nothing to do with you. I'd finally gotten over her death and you showing up brought back memories I didn't want."
Nathan: "And for that, I'm sorry. I don't hold anything against you, i'll be fine tomorrow, but I couldn't stand to look at you without you knowing why."
Amber: "It's okay, I mean, it's not really your fault."
After we'd talked for a bit, we both decided it would be best to sleep and let everything soak in, so we did.
The next morning, I lay outside on the bench in the fresh air as Nathan walked out to get the mail. I figured he hadn't seen me and wasn't planning on talking to me after what happened last night. That's why I was surprised when he came over and sat next to me.
Nathan: "Amber, tomorrow the town's holding their yearly dinner dance at the Town Hall and Jillian and I always go, so do you want to come with us? It'd be a great way for you to meet new people, you know?"
Amber: "Yeah, I'll go, that'd be nice."
Nathan: "Alright, be ready at five tomorrow, or we're leaving without you, just playin'."
And he smiled.
He got up to go back inside, but before he did, he did something un-Nathan-like.
He hugged me. Then went back inside. And not five mintues after he left, Jillian came out and started talking to me.
Jillian: "Amber! I almost forgot to tell you! We're headin' up to the Town's Dinner Dance tomorrow, and you're welcome to come with!"
Amber: "Thank you, and I will come. But Nathan's already asked me, so uhhh, yeah."
Jillian: "HUH!? Nathan asked to the dinner dance!?"
Her voice turned down to a whisper.
Jillian: "Men don't ask ladies to that there dance unless they're plannin' on makin those ladies their new arm candy, if you catch my drift Amber..."
I couldn't speak, so my mouth just hung open.
Jillian: "Well what do you look so surprised about, hon? Couldn't 'cha tell Nathan has the hots for ya?"
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:D woohoo, 'nother update.
**Kingdom Hearts reference in the title!
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