Witch Hunts I am finaly done

[OwlM]

This is my husband Fransisk, he is 25 and well know count  in our town. Also he is caryng husband and good futher.

This is me, well not the best part of me but still  its the way I am.

I enjoy reading, and writing my ideas, because there are no other way I can tell the world about them, other wise I would be hunted down by church.

For now I do all dirty job at home because I enjoy doing  that. This makes me feel alive.

[OwlM]

I love animalsm, by the way  I have  hawk.



And also a dog I love them both but the dog a bit  more because it is a reminder of my past. In my times not all people had a hobby naming dogs. At least for me it was friend that didnt speak my language.

[OwlM]

Well that basically that it what I do exsept for my seacret.I hope you can keep seacrets. Dont worry for our time my dids are perfectly legal and safe, but back that it wasnt. Women was no more as the face of house. They have to be always there and ready to be with thair master. But I wasnt like this I wanted to be more, this wat could be dangerous for my life if somebody would know what I do in the attic. Well the outcome of this would be in best case I would be hanged in worse I would be tortured and burned.

[OwlM]

I liked to do everything by my self but I needet help and as always happens help comes when you not expect her to come.

This two ladys were kind of ment to be my servants. Before I  got pregnant I had servants that I trained my self. But than I had to  let them go in order to have all peace for my self. I wanted to say no to this ones because I never liked people who tryed to get in my compony without my own wish.

"Oh plese madam I really do need this job I have a child on my own I need her a house or we will starve to death, and winter comes."
"Why my house has to be place where I feed you"
"A new king John when came to power he told all servants to go away and because of it no other master wants to take us."
Oh my John, my ex-husband now came to power and that means no good will come out of it. Well if this means the war between houses let the war beging because I will take this two servants.

[OwlM]

At first I wasnt sorry for taking them in, because  my servant really had a dother which was aproximetly as old as my Viola. Now i thought they would not be lonley and I insisted us to belike a famioly. We had more than enough place for that.




Now that I had them  things around house become much more easy to take care of. And i thought this would be a begining of a new family.

[OwlM]

I enjoyed watching children play, I knew they were not tied to me by blood by they were like my. And at any moment I would expect a new born angel in my life.

"My lady, I think that times are oushing close,  madame Gezele (my main servant) told be it would be the best for you to sleep away from the count in order to give a peace for both of you. In new quater  you will be closer to birth room and  to madame Gezele."
'No worries my friend, i still want to be with count I do not think this will worry him, this news event at the middle of the night will make him happy."
"As you wish my lady"

[OwlM]

Well that was my mistake, in the middle of the same night I was giving a birth.

'How is she?" Asked Fransisk afther hours of waiting and listening to screams aand cry's.
'My lord, may I ask you to sit because the news that I have was brigned from the hell."
Fransisk did not listened untill the end he runned to the room where I have been birth to our child.

At that time I did not knew what evil have I brought to my house. How could I know.

I have lost my hopes, my dream was ruined. I did not wanted to see nor carede abouth anything.

[OwlM]

Oh my I even might finish tonight if I will feel well. And I started other story that I hope you will enjoy it will be more modern but a bit different kind of problem I came up with it while I was working.

[OwlM]

Afther this I become what russians call "Zeleznaya ledi" or Iron lady which means I did not felt anything nor did I care, the meaning of my life was lost for me, lost and stolen for ever. I hated my self and everything around me I even stopped my expiriments because I felt that god have punished me because of them.

[OwlM]

I found a new style for my self that I belived was a sign of my crime, and a sign that I am trying to change. My body remained closed for everybody else. Not ven I slept with Fransisk nor did I talk  much to him.

[OwlM]

Well we did talked, after this I remmember only one our conversation while he was drawing be outside our house in fall.

"You really beautifull my love"
"No beauty  will have mersy on our god"
"Do not blame your self my love, It is noy your fault it's not just ment to be but we still do have Viola and I can bring other children from home less house, or we can keep on trying."
"Trying another murder."
"It is no murder if the child wasnt born yet."
"So you telling if child didnt born its not a person"
"Yes it is a person"
"But the law and commendments say if we kill a person it is a sin"

[OwlM]

"Honey I did not wish to make you mad."
"Oh now I am a mad person may you now send me to special houser?"
He looked at me like I have crushed his heart in to the million pieces. I didnt even care I just stood there upright like a queen.
"Our queen have invited you to their room"
"Well finaly they did" I replayed and I didnt even knew why, I dont even think I cared abouth their balls nor gossip room

[OwlM]

But by this reply I agreed to go there and I could not change my word. At that time our country  experienced some economic problems, so the royal family could not affor much even queen had a crown, and with a new king who spendet all money on colonies and wars between them had poored the country. Only my house worked well enough  to be in prosperity.

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I did went there but not everything was like in fairytale that my mother lod me, queen was looking bad and tierd her hair stucked out from different sides.
"Your majesty" sayed I in the sweet sarcastic voise and bend my knee a bit. "My name is Micaonella, wife..."
"Oh there is no need of telling me who you are, I am just glad to see  a women abouth whom a whole town are dying to gossip"
"Oh not all"
"Indeed all, it soundet strange that we havent seen you in  our gues rooms and balls."
"I had a hard time on my own"
"Oh my dear I did heard about hat nonsense insedent, I am sorry for your husband I really do know how he desired that child"
Sorry your lousy ass I thought to my self.
"thank you, your majesty I will tell this to my husband I think your words will help his come to his sence."
"Oh your words like a honey for me, I am really happy that your family are serves us, without you I do not know what would we do"
Yeah espeshelly if you stole my husband b&@ch.

[OwlM]

Oh by the way did you met my child Rossa.

I bend my head down and saw a little beautifull gird with a curly brown hair she was about 3-4 yeard old about a same age that my own child would be by now. Her eyes were sad and deep like my, and I felt an instant connection between us. I just wanted to hug her and tell everybody that she is my. But I knew better than that tha I cant do that to a royal child.